Friday, February 20, 2004

I left my heart in San Francisco/It's at some motherfucking disco/The people there were dancing on it/And that's including Ms. Matronic.

I've had all my words sucked out of me.

And Ms. Matronic smiled at me. And how I blushed.

Oh, I think I could stay up all night if I wanted. Think I probably will. Think about drinking pink cocktails, bright pink cocktails. I left early, left all of them standing on the pavement.

I bought a new coat. A sudden love affair. One thing led to another and now I have a beautiful new coat. It's two sizes too big. In it I might be the girl who borrows her boyfriend's mac when, in a hurry, she forgot all about London and February. I walk to school with L and M. There is nothing to say. I can't stand either of them. I want to talk to someone.

Rowena's on the phone crying to me and I don't know what to say so I cry too.

OJ's gone but we're still eating his food.

Dan wants to play the "ask me any question" game except we're grown-ups now so it's Liv, I don't know anything about you, do you think you know me? I feel like I don't know you, Liv. And in the end it's still "ask me any question". I tell him that he should tell me what it is he wants to tell me because I've learnt from experience people never ask the right questions.

I want someone to talk to.