Hello tequila,


When I'm licking salt off the back of my hand, and I'm in the garden, don’t know what to say, what to do, so many people I know and I’ve got nothing to say, and then Claire’s pulling on my fingers, pulling me into the kitchen, and I lick the salt off the back of my hand.


I hold an empty glass. I think: I should have painted my fingernails. I'm wearing green cotton. My brain is numb. Gem and Lizzie want me to walk with them - Gem wants to score and Lizzie just needs someone to tell her she’s gorgeous. We kiss and the world in blurring -andIwantedtobeyouforthelongesttime - and now you’ve kissed me twice - and my brain is numb.


Lemon juice, and my eyes are watering - I'm on the settee with Beautiful S and Claire. Beautiful S is crying. I pull her hair out of her face.